Haven't been blogging for some time alr....must say that a lot of things happened between this time period...College Day, GP MYE, Mr Lim's Wedding on the 29th, being super late for CSE lecture yesterday, Bio and maths lecture today.....yeah....lots...of...events....

sigh...

i dunno how im feeling right now....mind feels like there're a thousand thoughts wandering about in my head...

what happened yesterday at home....forget it...fuck man....seriously, i know i can't seem to find a lot of stuff at home, but can u don't make it seem like i'm blaming you? i may have STM a lot of times, but this time, i find what u said is really unnecessary!

i noe i may have no right to shout or even raise my voice a little, but it seems that i can't even do that, not even once

even just attempting to do that, and u get all angry and all that...seriously i feel fucked up...

I apologise for this, u guys are the greatest parents to me, but sometimes being unable to voice up is really wth; even the slightest raise will cause a spark...and well, im living with that since im born, and I can't do anything

can't help it, but just want to vent my frustrations here, no one is to blame except myself

i gotta live with this for the rest of my life, seems like it, maybe i should see a counsellor? considering, but not now...

also thinking about smth else for the past few days....just want to say this:

Whatever you do, that's your choice. I can't do much except to ask, the rest is all up to you. I just do what I can to help.

But can you simply reply promptly next time? Or just notify that you need time to think about it, cause you may be having difficulty answering at that very moment? That's all

If not, I'm always going to keep guessing whether it's you, and in the end, it's mostly someone else asking me smth

ok, feeling much better now...gotta pack finish for Shanghai, seems that the temperature is extreme, according to Mr W Chan...

see you guys in a few weeks or sooner, hopefully i can buy back some goodies...