119 days and counting...

mid-year exams are over not long ago, and we already got back some of our results....

and with the alumni talks on last Thursday...inspiring..motivating...it had set me thinking these few days on a lot of things....future....goals....results....these three things have been circulating around my mind...and it made me realise smth...

it's how we test ourselves that we can see our true abilities blossom and unleash...step-by-step as we pluck up our determination to strive on, that's how we can achieve

that determination is challenging to obtain, and especially to sustain it....it seems that the drive to do well needs to be constantly 'fuelled' in a sense, and that is hard for me to attain that level...

i have so many motivations around me...and i dun even have the ability to hang on and work hard consistently....my parents never made it to university (no A levels), my bro has good A Level results (A for GP, Chem, H2 German; B for H1 Physics and PW; C for H2 Maths --- He never was good at maths, that's what he told me), my cousin's results wasn't able to allow him to enter any of the 3 local Us.....

they're all around me, and somehow I'm unable to feel such sources of motivation....

what I've heard from school and family, telling that it's not too late, 119 days and counting down...less than 4 months to pick myself up...i need to grab hold of whatever time I have to do the best I can, and so can everyone else...sustain those grades that are good, and pull those that need to have be improved on...and also to knock some sense into my blur-blur mind to not repeat the same grave mistake again, or else, it's the end, and I've wasted my time and effort to be even in a rigourous JC curriculum....

it's time to wake up and open our eyes to reality; stop lying to yourself as it will not bring much good in the long-run like we take it for granted; face it and do it