now the whole nerve from the left butt to the knee hurts on occasions...standing or walking is now a real pain
now it feels really like a slipped disc and a muscle strain
no more, just gotta rest
can't do shit in camp...sometimes it's really demoralising to be unable to do any real physical activity...and looks like I can't go for the Survey course already with this bad back...no Thailand either :(
sucks to the max not being able to do something that's so grand and enriching, even though it's really troublesome to bring every single equipment over there...
maybe it's a signal, that God doesn't me to overdo myself and my body...I still got a long way to go...Uni, work, family, etc
it's just 2 years, or 22 months for me....not worth to be a cripple or handicap at 19+ years old and being stuck in a wheelchair forever after that. I still have people out there who need me. Family, friends, that special someone out there, future acquaintances....
gotta re-focus myself and live through the remaining 8 months or less...be happy be what I have. Every week, going through the mundane routine...goodness...
sleep alr....COS tmr!
I think I'm a socially awkward weirdo in camp...seriously. can't strike convo so easily, reading ppl's actions, expressions, comments too much, remain silent for most of the time. It's either just me and my mind, or the others, or both. (hmmm....mostly the former I bet)
Am I really the Underdog (as my father described)? seems quite somewhat legit....in terms of my family...I guess it's quite obvious. this is what I feel: :||||||||||
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