Helluva week....got back some of the results...GP, Maths, Chem....

E for GP and Maths...most saddening was GP Paper 2....sucks to the core....19/50

Well, on one side, I'm glad I passed...but on another side, there's this feeling that I've not worked hard enough...still, on the bright side, I now know which subjects to focus more on...and which sections I'm seriously terrible at!

This week has been nothing but sensing the atmosphere as very stressed....some didn't meet our expectations, some did, but all I can say is, you did to your best ability

Working hard seems to be never enough for this year, motivation is yet another part to attain, having to tell yourself everyday without fail that today's a new day to strive on...mind-draining but seemingly achievable...

I don't know how to continue, but to those who are out there worrying (including me), it's not over yet. Use the time over this short break to rest (seriously, REST [refreshing ease or inactivity after exertion or labor], we need it) and to pick yourself up...PW results are approaching but that does not mean we have to worry for the whole of next week before getting them...it's all up to yourself.

Jiayous S02!

Burning the Midnight Oil...

Gasp, I'm still doing the English Week Competition Essay which is supposed to be handed in today! (Technically)

Luckily, I finished Chem and Maths, but this draggy essay is starting to give me headaches already...and less than 5 hours of sleep!

So gonna die in Bio Lecture later at 8am! Hopefully, I don't fall asleep for Bio and CSE lecture! Appropriate times for my brain to have lapses of microsleep! lol!

Ok, gotta wrap up the essay and sleep already! Sigh! Start of the week, and we're all so busy with work! Also hope I do well or at least an Ok for Common Tests! Same for the rest of u guys out there!

cyas! Sian ttm man....

Over!

Common Tests are finallyy over....woooo!...

Bio and Maths were unforgiving, especially in their amount of marks for some questions...sian ttm...

Zzz....too tired to think already, so I'll keep this short...

Flu since Monday....terrible cause I kept sneezing during the CSE and Chem Paper...proved quite a distraction to other ppl I think...and also, it's a sneeze, not a cough! lol! sorry...
somehow, sneezing non-stop helps me focus, as I was quite off-focus during the Maths paper, as well as the whistling sounds from those J1s having PE...
Container classroom was cold ttm, and I'm sitting at the far side of the room, furthest from the air-con, even my teeth were chattering!
Mr Wong noticed that and helped to increase the temperature, so I gave him a gesture to thank him! Thanks a lot! Could grip my pen better and write properly hahas!

Played b-ball with guys after exam, and watched "How to Train Your Dragon" in 3-D, nice story, although the 3-D effects are a little hard to see, seems just like in 2-D...also a bit short, 90++ mins..
also didn't finish the drink bought along with the popcorn...everyone was so engrossed in the movie that we forgot about it totally lol
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Sleeeepy already...gonna repack my subject notes tmr...zzz...sleeping after the convo with Charlene and the rest, also needa buy stuff for Sat's AV Camp...honestly, this year's juniors are quite jialat, as quoted by Mr Ng...
Can't help but also agree, why? will find that out on Saturday...somehow, scolding is already partly on my mind, but I just dunno how to put the message across in other forms, apart from being firm, but seriously hope they won't stretch me to my limit, gonna be bad if that happens...and I don't feel like showing that, especially to juniors...please prove me wrong on this! Wonder what performance they have come up this time...

right! dun think too much about this, it's their job to show us, so surprise us properly please. Saturday...

Different days I see have varying impressions at different times already, and I'm starting to notice them that they are just like last year. It's been about 4-5 months and it's still the same? Why???

Imminent!

Common Tests are approaching in two days time!.....did a bit of this and a bit of that...but i doubt that's gonna work...one week is not enough, imagine preparing for As....the extreme horror!

this week has been nothing but revising, playing (terribly guilty of this) and eating (Seoul Garden with S02 guys on Monday, and many more on my part...)...
can say that I have to watch what I eat, all the CNY goodies are there left to take hahahas!
but, if u're gonna just leave it there, won't that be leaving it to spoil?
well, eat them and they're gone, for good...and I won't touch them again, that is I won't start hunting for more again hahas.....
just have to watch and control my weight, even though I'm always told I'm thin enough...

Science Centre Workshop was long and perhaps a little boring...discovered that I'm Alu +/+....means I'm a true blue Asian...haha....(being random here; of course not, there're other countries with a higher %)

been to school seeking short consultations for Bio, CSE and Maths....Chem, that's our own part, since she's not in school....

spent too much time playinggggg.....just simply addictive...well, can say that I've cut down on MW2, but Silent Hill, inFamous and all that...well, guilty of playing that a few hours ago.....

seeking a focused and disciplined mind is tough, I've set goals to control myself and yet I failed to follow them....which includes studying, playing, eating, etc etc etc....
shouldn't be too over-ambitious and set realistic and achievable ones...and it will take place after the CTs...

So first on the list:
1. Clear and arrange my notes on all my subjects on the 26th (Top priority)

others....still contemplating though....

I really should stop thinking so much already and focus...even though I managed to hold them back...some would still leak out and flood my train of thought that's on my studies...I'm sure you're facing about the same, although worse, from what I see recently...the struggles and reminders to get a hold of and control yourself...it's tough, obviously, let's face it.
I cannot do much except to shout "Don't give up" or something similar in my own mind, or even have this written on my face, even though it is hard to see that...but everyone has come too far to stop, admist the distractions and obstacles we face battling our mind that's filled with imagination and unnecessary thoughts.

I still feel guilty over what I've done, questioning myself that Why did it have to be you, of all people? creating an unforgettable scar in your life (what I see in my actions), and making you confused, as well as thinking so much about this...that's selfish and wrong of me to do that...
too caught up and lost in my own actions as I was that time...and come to think of it, how stupid I behaved..utterly immature....

Now, I'm not afraid or embarrassed like before, but still having the uncontrolled thought of postulating after my actions...

okay, that's enough..let's not talk about it already. Right now, we all have a huge obstacle to face.
Let's put in our best and see what happens after CTs. You have the strong willpower to do it.
Don't worry too much about other things, for they can wait after this. That's all I can say from here, the rest is all up to you, in your own hands. You can.

Back to CSE already~~~

finally this week is overr!....glad GP's over too!....paper was ok...esp Paper 2...felt more comfortable when reading the passage this time.....

played the whole day when reached home!....hopefully de-stress is successful...have to pia tmr already....woooo!....

CSE lesson after test.....zzz....copied till tired....

ok, need to regain the sleep lost from the past few days....

oh yeah, and happy 18th birthday Christine! hope u like the cookie cake the guys gave you lol....

nites!