sian

been exercising and reading the Basic Theory book, and still awaiting a response from KUMON
if they still didn't reply, it's time ta call alr, if not I will remain restless for the rest of the 5 months zzz...
either that or maybe join AhPer in his job, or perhaps otherwise some other job...
it seems impossible to sit in front of the com for the whole day! I dunno how some ppl can, but seriously, there is not much lifestyle in staring at a monitor for >6 hours!
gotta get out there and venture around, I neeeeeed to move!

it feels that I am always treading on thin ice with a thickness of a finger, whenever I am talking to ya, unsure of what will happen when I have spoken
but actually, the outcomes so far are the same, or relatively all the time
sian: this word will always be on my mind everytime......don't ask why, because no one even bothers to figure out anyway....or even close to guessing it right, whatever the case is

hmm...was playing Fallout 3 when I came across this:

I am Alpha and Omega
the beginning and the end
I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely

Revelation 21:16

Cherish what I have, enjoy the moments, and ponder on how great it is that we are existing right now, how this world is created and built
that I think will make me more satisfied with life
although some things are beyond my control, hey, I guess that's how choices are created, these carve a path of no return, and adaption...is hard to accept sometimes...

enough 'emo-ing' or whatever you may call it, gotta continue even if the light at the end of the tunnel is dim or bright, if not I'm gonna be stuck in the same predicament, stagnant every time...despite this, some things will not change even if the journey seems impossible