fight on....fight on...
that's what's been going on through my mind...just about 2 months...and it will end...and also another thing arises, solving that stagnant thing that's been there over a long time...
It's hard, I'm doing what I can to stop...it's not a damn excuse here, it's going against what you felt...
but
it makes you stronger, tougher and somehow in a rather negative way to put it, more stone-hearted...
if ppl can do it, why not I?
Few questions have popped up in my head
not gonna say here, not until after everything is over, to say the least
Doing nothing doesn't mean I don't care/dislike/hate you, it feels that it's the only way to prevent misunderstandings and affecting each other, especially with that huge As in front of us, it's not going to work out...
why? seems that doing something always ends up as something bad, and it's back to square one (or zero), that's why
that's all I want to talk about...others are worth bringing up, but now's not the time...you do well, I do well, we do well, that's fine..sacrifices must be made, no matter how bad the repercussions may be to me, cause this is our own future we are carving here, and affecting someone else's is just wrong, definitely wrong...
ok, let's do this
mock exams this week, do what I can do to the best within my ability
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
sunburn!
just came back from class outing! tired ttm man...
Sentosa in the morning, Vivo in the afternoon and Serangoon in the evening at a restaurant!
>12 hours away from home, probably the longest ever!
Got quite a sunburn in the morning from the scorching sun, playing handball and captain's ball...as well as the fun time in the sea! (won't forget the salty taste of seawater)
Rained at about 2 plus in the afternoon, you can imagine the strong sea breeze blowing in and sending some annoying sand particles flying towards your face....
Lunch at Vivo and then did window shopping...zzz, sure wish I had more moolah in my possession, guys' clothing are way expensive.....
decided to go to Chomp Chomp after a last-minute decision...waited for the bus 317 to arrive and in the end!...."closed due to pest control and spring cleaning"...immediate turn-off......
instead we went to the nearby restaurant that sells chicken rice and woo!...thoroughly enjoyed the spicy food (dun care whether lips are swollen or not, cause I like it!....)
had a lot of laughs too!...wow, wish I can spend more time outside with the class....lotsa things to talk about..
talked until about 9pm and had a lift from Belle's mom to Commonwealth...thanks again Belle! and your mom! (Ah Per, HJ and me)
also met Xiu Hui on the way back...coincidental....
well, starting to feel tired....gonna surf a bit more of the net and hit the sack zzz...
good times really pass too fast...gonna be back in the race on Wednesday....getting back results...wonder how we all fared this time....
Sentosa in the morning, Vivo in the afternoon and Serangoon in the evening at a restaurant!
>12 hours away from home, probably the longest ever!
Got quite a sunburn in the morning from the scorching sun, playing handball and captain's ball...as well as the fun time in the sea! (won't forget the salty taste of seawater)
Rained at about 2 plus in the afternoon, you can imagine the strong sea breeze blowing in and sending some annoying sand particles flying towards your face....
Lunch at Vivo and then did window shopping...zzz, sure wish I had more moolah in my possession, guys' clothing are way expensive.....
decided to go to Chomp Chomp after a last-minute decision...waited for the bus 317 to arrive and in the end!...."closed due to pest control and spring cleaning"...immediate turn-off......
instead we went to the nearby restaurant that sells chicken rice and woo!...thoroughly enjoyed the spicy food (dun care whether lips are swollen or not, cause I like it!....)
had a lot of laughs too!...wow, wish I can spend more time outside with the class....lotsa things to talk about..
talked until about 9pm and had a lift from Belle's mom to Commonwealth...thanks again Belle! and your mom! (Ah Per, HJ and me)
also met Xiu Hui on the way back...coincidental....
well, starting to feel tired....gonna surf a bit more of the net and hit the sack zzz...
good times really pass too fast...gonna be back in the race on Wednesday....getting back results...wonder how we all fared this time....
Monday, September 20, 2010
woot! didn't really blog for some time!
honestly, i dunno what else to write other than talking about exams and stuff, or about the stress we students are getting....
so far the papers are......ok...
CSE, Bio Paper 2 & 3, Chem Paper 3
and Chem Paper 2's tmr...so haveta prepare, esp the planning qn
seems that I can't seem to finish both bio papers...some questions not fully answered....
cse hopefully can pass...at least I didn't choose the WRONG qn now ha!
Chem was ok, manageable...but left small parts not answered properly....
well, those are over...
Maths was a killer....even with the practice I had the day earlier didn't really help much...lost >50 marks, 35 a sure-goner....wow....owned!
but not just yet..there's still paper 2 on wed, and I'm not going down without some hard practice on those stats qns, even though the TYS qns are somewhat scary (P&C for example!)
plan to do maths after that, hopefully amanda can stay back too! also consulting mdm song with her, so better pia some stats qns to ask her :/
and of course, not forgetting, my sleepless nights last week!
had that ridiculously long-lasting blocked nose, and guess what, Wednesday morning: woke up at 2am, can't sleep afterwards.....win
now it's okay alr, guess that nasal spray works well..and hopefully, I can enjoy sleeping instead of dreading it like last week..cause it seems that the sinus gets inflamed for no good reason and pop!
right...that's probably what happened last week...and now back to work..jiayous! needa motivate myself again to not let my train of thought get disrupted...gaining more control alr...! smth I didn't have last time..
and to end this....what happened recently and how I acted was just....wrong...feels wrong...it's like back in sec sch again....talking about the same thing time and again...
not
this
time
I'm not gonna do what I've been doing recently, I gotta stop myself from doing this shit...cause that's not me at all...
right...back! adios and good luck!
honestly, i dunno what else to write other than talking about exams and stuff, or about the stress we students are getting....
so far the papers are......ok...
CSE, Bio Paper 2 & 3, Chem Paper 3
and Chem Paper 2's tmr...so haveta prepare, esp the planning qn
seems that I can't seem to finish both bio papers...some questions not fully answered....
cse hopefully can pass...at least I didn't choose the WRONG qn now ha!
Chem was ok, manageable...but left small parts not answered properly....
well, those are over...
Maths was a killer....even with the practice I had the day earlier didn't really help much...lost >50 marks, 35 a sure-goner....wow....owned!
but not just yet..there's still paper 2 on wed, and I'm not going down without some hard practice on those stats qns, even though the TYS qns are somewhat scary (P&C for example!)
plan to do maths after that, hopefully amanda can stay back too! also consulting mdm song with her, so better pia some stats qns to ask her :/
and of course, not forgetting, my sleepless nights last week!
had that ridiculously long-lasting blocked nose, and guess what, Wednesday morning: woke up at 2am, can't sleep afterwards.....win
now it's okay alr, guess that nasal spray works well..and hopefully, I can enjoy sleeping instead of dreading it like last week..cause it seems that the sinus gets inflamed for no good reason and pop!
right...that's probably what happened last week...and now back to work..jiayous! needa motivate myself again to not let my train of thought get disrupted...gaining more control alr...! smth I didn't have last time..
and to end this....what happened recently and how I acted was just....wrong...feels wrong...it's like back in sec sch again....talking about the same thing time and again...
not
this
time
I'm not gonna do what I've been doing recently, I gotta stop myself from doing this shit...cause that's not me at all...
right...back! adios and good luck!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
18
want to thank everyone for the birthday wishes! :)
swam for a while and here I am...
esp S02 and my family! for the presents, songs and everything!
this week is a really memorable week for me, from feeding Hong and Ah Per the chocolate and cherry with my mouth, to taking pics with my cousin who just graduated, and to getting punctured by needles during acupuncture....wow...this is a really memorable 18th birthday celebration! no doubt about that!
about the acupuncture...
asked the doc about my left ring finger, on whether acupuncture will help....shock of my life!
had my left arm, abdomen, shins and legs poked!
i tried to take a pic with my mobile, reaching for it which was in my left pocket, then my shirt that was originally pulled up, dropped back down to the needles.......ow....
it covered my abdomen and the shirt had touched the needles, imagine the prickly feeling and ant bite pain (6 needles)....zzz...hell of an experience lol...
want a second time???.........well........will consider that.....
failed to take a pic anyway, and after that, my right shin had a little bleeding from the needle...feeling a little painful, but it's okay now....
went back to school today to get GP essay, but in the end, studied all the way with Per till 4pm then left....(Liang actually came with Per in the morning, then left with An Na when we couldn't get the essays)
nothing to say........dozed off a little while reading lol...hard to concentrate with the hot envt out there....
swam for a while and here I am...
anyway, once again, thank you everyone for the wishes!
back to studying later...GP ah GP...
Rather put off by the Cs thing alr...need to put away distractions...no matter how close they are...and how much you prefer someone over the rest....I'm sure we're all aiming for good results in Prelims and As...
I can't do anything but just.....do..nothing...but just try to figure out what you're thinking....honestly I'm too simple a guy to comprehend but...all I'm saying is that it somehow feels different...and at the same time, it still feels the same...
Friday, August 13, 2010
Time's a commodity
84 days left, exactly 12 weeks....starting from next monday....makes us wonder how time passes so fast...and how long i haven't blogged yet
been having less than 6 hours of sleep for the past two days...and that killed my concentration zzz...hard to think properly due to fatigue....
thought of smth that i dreamt for the past few days, having similar encounters (lucid dream perhaps?)...and that smth really makes me wonder....is that going to be true? is it going to even happen at all? cause right now, it's practically still the same, and I find that encounter hard to believe at all...not gonna happen so soon I guess, but somehow...I hope it will...because having similar dreams means some thing has changed, and weird enough, left eyebrow keeps twitching from out of the blue when I do my work...what does that all mean anyway....zzz...
aiiee...whatever man....that work pile is still increasing and I still feel guilty that I haven't really touched mathsssss.....hong and jas kept pestering me to do do do....I kept doing chem or bio instead...*wail* can't run away from it....lol
what he said really was relevant to me....im starting to get worried about GP alr...probably even for CSE...all that imbibing, recalling, writing, wow...shows that I'm not really studying much, and GP is that damn subject that will drop if u dun have that mood and energy, since doing a damn essay or a compre with a gong-gong mind is gonna break u down
always tell myself that i must work hard...must do this and that, even my bro, and even the guys, tell me to not think so much
i always tell myself not to be complacent, hence the negative remarks i tell myself..but that has really caused my mind to wander all around about my future and results...wowz...haywire...
gotta look at the present and do smth about it, work work work, with a little play inside too lol
bro got new games again.....wah, more distractions to handle at home alr....and there are also new games that i want and they arrive in Nov wth!!!
Obviously, He's really putting me to the test, trying to see how I handle work, distractions, communication with ppl, handling relationships with ppl...the lot to worry about....
as i break away from games gradually and study and revise, I gotta learn to prioritise and strategise properly, or else all that revision will be up to naught...also seek out that motivation to strive....cause doing this without something to spur u on, can make u a dead person and at a dead's end
ok, im feeling dead alr....sleep bah, tmr pway a bit of games, then do those revision papers...and I WILL do MATHS!!! (Ah Per, I hope u're reading this!!)
been having less than 6 hours of sleep for the past two days...and that killed my concentration zzz...hard to think properly due to fatigue....
thought of smth that i dreamt for the past few days, having similar encounters (lucid dream perhaps?)...and that smth really makes me wonder....is that going to be true? is it going to even happen at all? cause right now, it's practically still the same, and I find that encounter hard to believe at all...not gonna happen so soon I guess, but somehow...I hope it will...because having similar dreams means some thing has changed, and weird enough, left eyebrow keeps twitching from out of the blue when I do my work...what does that all mean anyway....zzz...
aiiee...whatever man....that work pile is still increasing and I still feel guilty that I haven't really touched mathsssss.....hong and jas kept pestering me to do do do....I kept doing chem or bio instead...*wail* can't run away from it....lol
what he said really was relevant to me....im starting to get worried about GP alr...probably even for CSE...all that imbibing, recalling, writing, wow...shows that I'm not really studying much, and GP is that damn subject that will drop if u dun have that mood and energy, since doing a damn essay or a compre with a gong-gong mind is gonna break u down
always tell myself that i must work hard...must do this and that, even my bro, and even the guys, tell me to not think so much
i always tell myself not to be complacent, hence the negative remarks i tell myself..but that has really caused my mind to wander all around about my future and results...wowz...haywire...
gotta look at the present and do smth about it, work work work, with a little play inside too lol
bro got new games again.....wah, more distractions to handle at home alr....and there are also new games that i want and they arrive in Nov wth!!!
Obviously, He's really putting me to the test, trying to see how I handle work, distractions, communication with ppl, handling relationships with ppl...the lot to worry about....
as i break away from games gradually and study and revise, I gotta learn to prioritise and strategise properly, or else all that revision will be up to naught...also seek out that motivation to strive....cause doing this without something to spur u on, can make u a dead person and at a dead's end
ok, im feeling dead alr....sleep bah, tmr pway a bit of games, then do those revision papers...and I WILL do MATHS!!! (Ah Per, I hope u're reading this!!)
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