7 papers down, 4 to go...
played yesterday and today zzz....need to go back to studies alr....can't wait for CSE to be over!!..argh....
As are not over!...but I've been pondering over this since this morning..
What am I going to do after As? that is excluding training and probably work....
i really, really, really don't know......mind is totally perplexed....question marks here and there...???
maybe it's cause i slept for almost 11 hours zzz...10:30 to 9 plus in the morning...lagi best lol
i really got to plan ahead and choose my decisions, or else it's gonna be 5 miserable and confusing months of waiting to take the ferry....
guess im too bored liao....
gotta make use of my time wisely already....damn those new games are dissttrraaccttiinngg...
New Vegas, Black Ops, AC: Brotherhood
3 new games that are rather distracting, and those earworms from the music in the first 2 games are well...irritating, especially during the exam!
lololol....something I am still unable to overcome...
right...i guess it's about time to sleep and wake up early to revise chem...no more stupid surprises like in paper 2 and 3, need to prepare for the worst, since there're quite a number of topics that are not tested yet....
why am I still getting episodes of thoughts again? even with the heavy suppression, they still come back...sigh..guess I cannot be too bored, or my mind will wander to that again...
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Temporary Shutdown
Will not be touching this space from November onwards, till the end of A levels or after the first week of terror....Chem, GP, Bio Maths.....
Tmr begins the week of hardcore planned revision....preparation is still slow, but I'm glad that improvements are gradually seen in my maths alr...need to focus a bit more for the other 4 subs....esp Chem...can't say that I have a good feeling that this year's paper will be easy....maybe I'm paranoid...well....this is for a good reason lol......
cutting down on Fb too....10mins per login or less...it's for the better....
time to gear up, prepare and to 'kill' the papers, so that the annoying overwhelming feeling of 'wah, this is difficult' can be thwarted.....
jiayous S02! and to those taking A levels!
the future is ours to mould and shape....let's make things right this time and do what we can!
until then, after As...will other things be settled....dun get distracted alr!
cyas!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Break day...
took a break from the spree of staying in school.....played for about the whole day!....sinful ttm lol....
consolidation of work is not much actually, just that I hope that my worries for the A level papers won't really be out!....
yeah, even though it's a so-called rest day, again..thought a lot about where we are now, at this juncture...
losing focus over these few days......I'm starting to lose my original mental focus alr....and well, all i can say to myself is this:
Stop trying to figure out already, and face it. I can't do anything about it at this point of time, since it's obvious that any attempt will not make things easy, especially for your easily-distracted and wondering mind. I can only sit there and only wonder whether I am of any help at all; the rest is up to the other party. That's their own lives they're running, so stop poking further at it and analysing. I can only go with the flow and must stop anticipating every minute detail or action shown, let things be as it should be. Whether I am talked to or not, or whether how much effort I have put in in trying to communicate, is the result of my rather foolish actions you did last time, and I can't really do much about it. There's no quicksave or quickload like in a game, this is life; what's done's done, and one of the things I have to do is to adapt.
It seems like I'm lying to myself, talking about facing it, and in the end, I did nothing but make things worse. I need to re-develop my discipline again, and only hope for the best....that things are fine on the other side....
I feel like I'm a lost soul, searching and seeking for something that may be there or not.........
well....that's part of what I feel now, getting part of this huge load off my chest....and I may have to cast this aside first and think of that bungling obstacle we call As...
I just hope that at the end of the long tunnel, things will be better than I thought, and also that it is mutual on both sides.....
all right........let's get back already...I've got a lot to catch up from this long break, gotta prepare and ready up. Jiayous! :)
consolidation of work is not much actually, just that I hope that my worries for the A level papers won't really be out!....
yeah, even though it's a so-called rest day, again..thought a lot about where we are now, at this juncture...
losing focus over these few days......I'm starting to lose my original mental focus alr....and well, all i can say to myself is this:
Stop trying to figure out already, and face it. I can't do anything about it at this point of time, since it's obvious that any attempt will not make things easy, especially for your easily-distracted and wondering mind. I can only sit there and only wonder whether I am of any help at all; the rest is up to the other party. That's their own lives they're running, so stop poking further at it and analysing. I can only go with the flow and must stop anticipating every minute detail or action shown, let things be as it should be. Whether I am talked to or not, or whether how much effort I have put in in trying to communicate, is the result of my rather foolish actions you did last time, and I can't really do much about it. There's no quicksave or quickload like in a game, this is life; what's done's done, and one of the things I have to do is to adapt.
It seems like I'm lying to myself, talking about facing it, and in the end, I did nothing but make things worse. I need to re-develop my discipline again, and only hope for the best....that things are fine on the other side....
I feel like I'm a lost soul, searching and seeking for something that may be there or not.........
well....that's part of what I feel now, getting part of this huge load off my chest....and I may have to cast this aside first and think of that bungling obstacle we call As...
I just hope that at the end of the long tunnel, things will be better than I thought, and also that it is mutual on both sides.....
all right........let's get back already...I've got a lot to catch up from this long break, gotta prepare and ready up. Jiayous! :)
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
21 days...
about 21 days from now to the first A level paper for my class, other Chem peeps and me... (those taking Sciences)
this time period will soon zoom past very quickly, and we are here studying...mugging......
well, farewell assembly has already finished about a few days back! I'm honestly going to miss my class :(
even though there's some friction here and there, overall, this class is a hell load of fun and laughter!!! that's something to be really proud of here! S02 ROCKSSSSSS!!!!!
Pictures taken, memories recalled, trip down memory lane...i can alr imagine what we are after As...! the future is ours to embrace, after As!
now.....it's just maths, maths maths, and other subjects. Mostly maths, cause I don't want a stupid borderline pass or fail that I've gotten for the past 2 years...that's really damn sian....
other subjects....GP especially, need to relook and revamp my stuff...seeing how hard Ah Per is studying for maths makes me ponder over this wild card-like subject....
CSE is still ok....but I'm worried about the themes 1 and 2, got this feeling that these will be in essay qns, or worse, cross-thematic types.....the horror for CSE students, both H1 and H2...
Bio, an unsure subject....cause content needs to be relooked at and memorised consistently...if not then it's a no-go alr.....
Chem, my strongest, but!...looking and doing the other JCs' Prelim papers, makes me all jittery, that either this year's paper will be hard, mostly concept-based qns, or the other students in these JCs are so strong and prepared in their chem, that they can score well in the As, and in the end, it's us who lose out....can imagine the competition here...zzz...
u gotta admit, pj's paper is much simpler and more straightforward as compared to theirs....so whoever said that chem will be easy, u need to reconsider...well, that's what I feel...
I guess that the gradual effort we put in is really interrupted by the anxiety and the thought that we are not fully prepared...well, for me, I'm not gonna let it repeat again like O levels, this is alr the crossroads of my life and I should've woken up and start placing more effort for my future...we all have to....
encouragement..positive thinking...ppl we can talk to to lower our worries...these are all needed here....it's hard to just venture out there alone, facing this obstacle....
this is where family and friends come in....they may not always be there, but their presence, advice and concern, are really needed...
well, I guess it's about time to turn in and face the mock exam tmr, see how the effort I put in can be expressed through doing the questions correctly...
I'm here if you really need me or my help, someone to talk to alone or to help when needed. If you really do, I'll do what I can to help within my capability. That is, if your decision falls under this.
this time period will soon zoom past very quickly, and we are here studying...mugging......
well, farewell assembly has already finished about a few days back! I'm honestly going to miss my class :(
even though there's some friction here and there, overall, this class is a hell load of fun and laughter!!! that's something to be really proud of here! S02 ROCKSSSSSS!!!!!
Pictures taken, memories recalled, trip down memory lane...i can alr imagine what we are after As...! the future is ours to embrace, after As!
now.....it's just maths, maths maths, and other subjects. Mostly maths, cause I don't want a stupid borderline pass or fail that I've gotten for the past 2 years...that's really damn sian....
other subjects....GP especially, need to relook and revamp my stuff...seeing how hard Ah Per is studying for maths makes me ponder over this wild card-like subject....
CSE is still ok....but I'm worried about the themes 1 and 2, got this feeling that these will be in essay qns, or worse, cross-thematic types.....the horror for CSE students, both H1 and H2...
Bio, an unsure subject....cause content needs to be relooked at and memorised consistently...if not then it's a no-go alr.....
Chem, my strongest, but!...looking and doing the other JCs' Prelim papers, makes me all jittery, that either this year's paper will be hard, mostly concept-based qns, or the other students in these JCs are so strong and prepared in their chem, that they can score well in the As, and in the end, it's us who lose out....can imagine the competition here...zzz...
u gotta admit, pj's paper is much simpler and more straightforward as compared to theirs....so whoever said that chem will be easy, u need to reconsider...well, that's what I feel...
I guess that the gradual effort we put in is really interrupted by the anxiety and the thought that we are not fully prepared...well, for me, I'm not gonna let it repeat again like O levels, this is alr the crossroads of my life and I should've woken up and start placing more effort for my future...we all have to....
encouragement..positive thinking...ppl we can talk to to lower our worries...these are all needed here....it's hard to just venture out there alone, facing this obstacle....
this is where family and friends come in....they may not always be there, but their presence, advice and concern, are really needed...
well, I guess it's about time to turn in and face the mock exam tmr, see how the effort I put in can be expressed through doing the questions correctly...
I'm here if you really need me or my help, someone to talk to alone or to help when needed. If you really do, I'll do what I can to help within my capability. That is, if your decision falls under this.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
???
Compromise..compromise..compromise...understand..understand..understand..careful...careful..careful..
some of the words that have been circulating around my mind since this evening....
I do what I can, but we all have our limitations
so about these, we need to understand..
we're not flawless
we cannot always be there all the time whenever and wherever
we still lead our own lives
it's not an issue of incompetence/whatever kind that is degrading
because the effort we put in should send a clear message that is enough to be understood
if not, then that will really make life even more complicated than it is
hence the 3 words as mentioned above
this is not forcing something down the throat or forcing a belief/thinking/whatever it may be..this is mutual understanding
this is how it all began and how it will lead
some of the words that have been circulating around my mind since this evening....
I do what I can, but we all have our limitations
so about these, we need to understand..
we're not flawless
we cannot always be there all the time whenever and wherever
we still lead our own lives
it's not an issue of incompetence/whatever kind that is degrading
because the effort we put in should send a clear message that is enough to be understood
if not, then that will really make life even more complicated than it is
hence the 3 words as mentioned above
this is not forcing something down the throat or forcing a belief/thinking/whatever it may be..this is mutual understanding
this is how it all began and how it will lead
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